309/ August 20, 2011 - How do you write an ending? (4)

Instead of writing to you, I write to your mother. I tell her everything we ever told and did and promised and broke. I tell her how every day I tried to make your sad eyes happy. How those days in the hospital were proud days and just a little bit weary. How I took what was yours and wrote it on my body permanently. How I will not regret doing that. How I will not regret anything even if I forget nothing. I will thank your mother for being my mother for two and a half years— and that is how I will end it, punctuated with gratefulness for the greatness of those years. 

I will not reclaim that greatness because it is not possible, it is not due, it is not meant. I sign with a prayer that you will never read that letter, and with hope that your mother will understand.

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